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  PARADISE

  Abdulrazak Gurnah

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  Copyright © 1994 by Abdulrazak Gurnah

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  Published in the United States by The New Press, New York

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  Originally published in the United Kingdom by Hamish Hamilton in 1994.

  ISBN 978-1-56584-163-5 (pb.)

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  Gurnah, Abdulrazak, 1948–

  Paradise / Abdulrazak Gurnah.

  p. cm.

  ISBN 978-1-56584-162-8 (hc.)

  1. Boys—Africa—Fiction. 2. Europe—Colonies—Africa—Fiction.

  I. Title.

  PR9399.9.G87P37 1994

  823–dc2093-46678

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  For Salma Abdalla Basalama

  THE WALLED GARDEN

  1

  The boy first. His name was Yusuf, and he left his home suddenly during his twelfth year. He remembered it was the season of drought, when every day was the same as the last. Unexpected flowers bloomed and died. Strange insects scuttled from under rocks and writhed to their deaths in the burning light. The sun made distant trees tremble in the air and made the houses shudder and heave for breath. Clouds of dust puffed up at every tramping footfall and a hard-edged stillness lay over the daylight hours. Precise moments like that came back of the season.

  He saw two Europeans on the railway platform at that time, the first he had ever seen. He was not frightened, not at first. He went to the station often, to watch the trains come noisily and gracefully in, and then to wait for them to haul themselves out again, marshalled by the scowling Indian signalman with his pennants and whistle. Often Yusuf waited hours for a train to arrive. The two Europeans were also waiting, standing under a canvas awning with their luggage and important-looking goods neatly piled a few feet away. The man was large, so tall that he had to lower his head to avoid touching the canvas under which he sheltered from the sun. The woman stood further back in the shade, her glistening face partly obscured by two hats. Her frilled white blouse was buttoned up at the neck and wrists, and her long skirt brushed her shoes. She was tall and large too, but differently. Where she looked lumpy and malleable, as if capable of taking another shape, he appeared carved out of a single piece of wood. They stared in different directions, as if they did not know each other. As he watched, Yusuf saw the woman run her handkerchief over her lips, casually rubbing off flakes of dry skin. The man’s face was mottled with red, and as his eyes moved slowly over the cramped landscape of the station, taking in the locked wooden storehouses and the huge yellow flag with its picture of a glaring black bird, Yusuf was able to take a long look at him. Then he turned and saw Yusuf staring. The man glanced away at first and then looked back at Yusuf for a long moment. Yusuf could not tear his eyes away. Suddenly the man bared his teeth in an involuntary snarl, curling his fingers in an inexplicable way. Yusuf heeded the warning and fled, muttering the words he had been taught to say when he required sudden and unexpected help from God.

  That year he left his home was also the year the woodworm infested the posts in the back porch. His father smacked the posts angrily whenever he passed them, letting them know he knew what game they were up to. The woodworm left trails on the beams that were like the turned-up earth which marked the animal tunnels in the bed of the dry stream. The posts sounded soft and hollow whenever Yusuf hit them, and emitted tiny grainy spores of rot. When he grumbled for food his mother told him to eat the worms.

  ‘I’m hungry,’ he wailed at her, in an untutored litany he had been reciting with increasing gruffness with each passing year.

  ‘Eat the woodworm,’ his mother suggested, and then laughed at his exaggerated look of disgusted anguish. ‘Go on, stuff yourself with it any time you want. Don’t let me stop you.’

  He sighed in a world-weary way he was experimenting with to show her how pathetic her joke was. Sometimes they ate bones, which his mother boiled up to make a thin soup whose surface glistened with colour and grease, and in whose depths lurked lumps of black spongy marrow. At worst, there was only okra stew, but however hungry he was Yusuf could not swallow the slimy sauce.

  His Uncle Aziz also came to visit them at that time. His visits were brief and far between, usually accompanied by a crowd of travellers and porters and musicians. He stopped with them on the long journeys he made from the ocean to the mountains, to the lakes and forests, and across the dry plains and the bare rocky hills of the interior. His expeditions were often accompanied by drums and tamburis and horns and siwa, and when his train marched into town animals stampeded and evacuated themselves, and children ran out of control. Uncle Aziz gave off a strange and unusual odour, a mixture of hide and perfume, and gums and spices, and another less definable smell which made Yusuf think of danger. His habitual dress was a thin, flowing kanzu of fine cotton and a small crocheted cap pushed back on his head. With his refined airs and his polite, impassive manner, he looked more like a man on a late afternoon stroll or a worshipper on the way to evening prayers than a merchant who had picked his way past bushes of thorn and nests of vipers spitting poison. Even in the heat of arrival, amid the chaos and disorder of tumbled packs, surrounded by tired and noisy porters, and watchful, sharp-clawed traders, Uncle Aziz managed to look calm and at ease. On this visit he had come alone.

  Yusuf always enjoyed his visits. His father said they brought honour on them because he was such a rich and renowned merchant – tajiri mkubwa – but that was not all, welcome though honour always was. Uncle Aziz gave him, without fail, a ten anna piece every time he stopped with them. Nothing was required of him but that he should present himself at the appropriate time. Uncle Aziz looked out for him, smiled and gave him the coin. Yusuf felt he wanted to smile too every time the moment arrived, but he stopped himself because he guessed that it would be wrong for him to do so. Yusuf marvelled at Uncle Aziz’s luminous skin and his mysterious smell. Even after his departure, his perfume lingered for days.

  By the third day of his visit, it was obvious that Uncle Aziz’s departure was at hand. There was unusual activity in the kitchen, and the unmistakable, mingled aromas of a feast. Sweet frying spices, simmering coconut sauce, yeasty buns and flat bread, baking biscuits and boiling meat. Yusuf made sure not to be too far away from the house all day, in case his mother needed help preparing the dishes or wanted an opinion on one of them. He knew she valued his opinion on such matters. Or she might forget to stir a sauce, or miss the moment when the hot oil is trembling just enough for the vegetables to be added. It was a tricky business, for while he wanted to be able to keep an eye on the kitchen, he did not want his mother to see him loafing on the lookout. She would then be sure to send him on endless errands, which is bad enough in itself, but it might also cause him to miss saying goodbye to Uncle Aziz. It was always at the
moment of departure that the ten anna piece changed hands, when Uncle Aziz would offer his hand to be kissed and stroke the back of Yusuf’s head as he bent over it. Then with practised ease he would slip the coin into Yusuf’s hand.

  His father was usually at work until soon after noon. Yusuf guessed that he would be bringing Uncle Aziz with him when he came, so there was plenty of time to kill. His father’s business was running a hotel. This was the latest in a line of businesses with which he had attempted to make his fortune and his name. When he was in the mood he told them stories at home of other schemes which he had thought would prosper, making them sound ridiculous and hilarious. Or Yusuf heard him complain of how his life had gone wrong, and everything he had tried had failed. The hotel, which was an eating house with four clean beds in an upstairs room, was in the small town of Kawa, where they had been living for over four years. Before that they had lived in the south, in another small town in a farming district where his father had kept a store. Yusuf remembered a green hill and distant shadows of mountains, and an old man who sat on a stool on the pavement at the storefront, embroidering caps with silk thread. They came to Kawa because it had become a boom town when the Germans had used it as a depot for the railway line they were building to the highlands of the interior. But the boom passed quickly, and the trains now only stopped to take on wood and water. On his last journey, Uncle Aziz had used the line to Kawa before cutting to the west on foot. On his next expedition, he said, he would go as far as he could up the line before taking a north-western or north-eastern route. There was still good trade to be done in either of those places, he said. Sometimes Yusuf heard his father say that the whole town was going to Hell.

  The train to the coast left in the early evening, and Yusuf thought Uncle Aziz would be on it. He guessed from something in his manner that Uncle Aziz was on his way home. But you could never be sure with people, and it might turn out that he would take the up-train to the mountains, which left in mid-afternoon. Yusuf was ready for either outcome. His father expected him to make an appearance at the hotel every afternoon after his midday prayers – to learn about the business, his father told him, and to learn to stand on his own feet, but really to relieve the two young men who helped and cleaned up in the kitchen, and who served the food to the customers. The hotel cook drank and cursed, and abused everyone in sight except Yusuf. He would break off in the middle of a foul-mouthed harangue with smiles when he caught sight of him, but Yusuf still feared and trembled in front of him. On that day he did not go to the hotel, nor did he say his midday prayers, and in the terrible heat of that time of day he did not think anyone would bother to hunt him out. Instead he skulked in shady corners and behind the chicken-houses in the backyard, until he was driven from there by the suffocating smells which rose with the early afternoon dust. He hid in the dark timber-yard next door to their house, a place of dark purple shadows and a vaulting thatch roof, where he listened for the cautious scurrying of stalking lizards and kept a sharp lookout for the ten anna.

  He did not find the silence and gloom of the timber-yard disconcerting, for he was accustomed to playing alone. His father did not like him to play far from home. ‘We are surrounded by savages,’ he said. ‘Washenzi, who have no faith in God and who worship spirits and demons which live in trees and rocks. They like nothing better than to kidnap little children and make use of them as they wish. Or you’ll go with those other ones who have no care, those loafers and children of loafers, and they’ll neglect you and let the wild dogs eat you. Stay here nearby where it’s safe, so someone can keep an eye on you.’ Yusuf’s father preferred him to play with the children of the Indian storekeeper who lived in the neighbourhood, except that the Indian children threw sand and jeered at him when he tried to get near them. ‘Golo, golo,’ they chanted at him, spitting in his direction. Sometimes he sat with the groups of older boys who lounged under shades of trees or the lees of houses. He liked being with the boys because they were always telling jokes and laughing. Their parents worked as vibarua, labouring for the Germans on the line-construction gangs, doing piece-work at the railhead, or portering for travellers and traders. They were only ever paid for the work they did, and at times there was no work. Yusuf had heard the boys say that the Germans hanged people if they did not work hard enough. If they were too young to hang, they cut their stones off. The Germans were afraid of nothing. They did whatever they wanted and no one could stop them. One of the boys said that his father had seen a German put his hand in the heart of a blazing fire without being burnt, as if he were a phantom.

  The vibarua who were their parents came from all over, from the Usambara highlands north of Kawa, from the fabulous lakes to the west of the highlands, from the war-torn savannahs to the south and many from the coast. They laughed about their parents, mocking their work-songs and comparing stories of the disgusting and sour smells they brought home. They made up names for the places their parents came from, funny and unpleasant names which they used to abuse and mock each other. Sometimes they fought, tumbling and kicking and causing each other pain. If they could, the older boys found work as servants or errand runners, but mostly they lounged and scavenged, waiting to grow strong enough for the work of men. Yusuf sat with them when they let him, listening to their conversation and running errands for them.

  To pass the time they gossiped or played cards. It was with them that Yusuf first heard that babies lived in penises. When a man wanted a child, he put the baby inside a woman’s stomach where there is more room for it to grow. He was not the only one to find the story incredible, and penises were pulled out and measured as the debate heated up. Soon enough the babies were forgotten and the penises became interesting in their own right. The older boys were proud to display themselves and forced the younger ones to expose their little abdallas for a laugh.

  Sometimes they played kipande. Yusuf was too small ever to get the chance to bat, since age and strength determined the batting order, but whenever he was allowed he joined the crowd of fielders who frantically chased across dusty open spaces after a flying slug of wood. Once his father saw him running in the streets with a hysterical mob of children chasing after a kipande. He gave him a hard look of disapproval and slapped him before sending him home.

  Yusuf made himself a kipande, and adapted the game so he could play it on his own. His adaptation consisted of pretending he was also all the other players, with the advantage that this way he could bat for as long as he felt like it. He chased up and down the road in front of their house, shouting with excitement and trying to catch a kipande he had just hit as high in the air as he could, to give himself time to get under it.

  2

  So on the day of Uncle Aziz’s departure, Yusuf had no qualms about wasting a few hours while he stalked the ten anna piece. His father and Uncle Aziz came home together at one in the afternoon. He could see their bodies shimmering in the liquid light as they approached slowly on the stony path which led to the house. They walked without talking, their heads lowered and their shoulders hunched against the heat. The lunch was already laid out for them on the best rug in the guest room. Yusuf himself had lent a hand in the final preparations, adjusting the positions of some of the dishes for best effect and earning a wide grateful smile from his tired mother. While he was there, Yusuf took the opportunity to reconnoitre the feast. Two different kinds of curries, chicken and minced mutton. The best Peshawar rice, glistening with ghee and dotted with sultanas and almonds. Aromatic and plump buns, maandazi and mahamri, overflowing the cloth-covered basket. Spinach in a coconut sauce. A plate of water-beans. Strips of dried fish charred in the dying embers which had cooked the rest of the food. Yusuf almost wept with longing as he surveyed this plenty, so different from the meagre meals of that time. His mother frowned at the performance, but his face turned so tragic that she laughed in the end.

  Once the men were seated, Yusuf went in with a brass pitcher and bowl, and a clean linen cloth draped over his left arm. He poured the water
slowly while Uncle Aziz and then his father rinsed their hands. He liked guests like Uncle Aziz, liked them very much. He thought this as he crouched outside the door of the guest room, in case his services were required. He would have been happy enough to stay in the room and watch, but his father had glared at him irritably and chased him out. There was always something happening when Uncle Aziz was around. He ate all his meals at their house even though he slept at the hotel. That meant that there were often interesting morsels left over after they had finished – unless his mother got a clear look at them first, when they usually ended up in a neighbour’s house or in the stomach of one of the ragged mendicants who sometimes came to the door, mumbling and whining their praises of God. His mother said it was kinder to give food away to neighbours and to the needy than to indulge in gluttony. Yusuf could not see the sense of that, but his mother told him that virtue was its own reward. He understood from the sharpness in her voice that if he said any more he would have to listen to another lengthy sermon, and he had plenty enough of that from the Koran-school teacher.

  There was one mendicant Yusuf did not mind sharing his leftovers with. His name was Mohammed, a shrunken man with a reedy voice who stank of bad meat. Yusuf had found him sitting by the side of the house one afternoon eating handfuls of red earth which he scooped out of the broken outside wall. His shirt was grimy and stained and he wore a pair of the most ragged shorts Yusuf had ever seen. The rim of his cap was dark brown with sweat and dirt. Yusuf watched him for a few minutes, debating whether he remembered seeing anyone who looked dirtier, and then went to get him a bowl of leftover cassava. After a few mouthfuls, which Mohammed ate between whines of gratitude, he told him that the tragedy of his life was the weed. He had once been well off, he said, with watered land and some animals, and a mother who loved him. During the day he worked his sweet land to the utmost of his strength and endurance, and in the evening he sat with his mother while she sang God’s praises and told him fabulous stories of the great world.